For years I have been asking myself,
'Why have I been born into this family?"
Particularly this race/ethnicity, with its set of cultures and physical traits.
While my grandparents are still observing several traditions, I no longer see reasons for it. Let alone be connected with it, and deem it 'relevant' for myself. So year by year, I'm only 'celebrating' to respect my grandparents, but I never truly enjoyed it.
Yet this year, again as I ask, "Why?"
These words are spoken into my heart: "Why not? What do you want instead?"
Do I want other cultures & traditions which I 'deem' more normal? Do I want no traditions at all?
I fell head over heels with this country and city of mine. I know that God placed me here; it's where I belong.
Then, if so, why can't I accept my background and culture the same way I accept my 'geographical placement'?
I might not continue to observe the traditions - we'll see. I still don't feel that strong of a connection.
But maybe that's because I'm not trying.
So, starting from now,
instead of wondering 'why?' and not having the ability to change the facts anyway,
I'll try to learn to embrace it and accept it.
I might not enjoy nor understand it, but I know God gives it to me for a reason - and this is the best place for me.
After all, it's not like I can change that part of me.
Who knows what comes out of this?
Cheers!
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