This afternoon, out of nowhere, I sobbed.
I wasn't sad at all.
I'm pretty sure it's not hormonal, as well.
But it was just the way that this particular song always gets me choked up.
The song is by - you might guess - miss Taylor Swift
and it is said to be her love song for her fans.
The song is called 'Long Live',
and it is like an account of the success she had, the journey she had to go through to get there, and what happens next if, say, we say goodbye.
There's something in the way she sings the lines,
especially in the Eras Tour.
The lyrics says:
"Long live, the walls we crashed through / I had the time of my life with you //
Long, long live..."
When she said 'with you' - she would point to the crowd,
and when she sang 'Long, long live' she would do two fist bumps before resuming her guitar playing.
As a person and as an artist, she'd gone through so much.
People have come and gone, problems come and gone.
But she would always have the fans and her band with her.
She did ask us: 'Will you take a moment? / Promise me this /That you'll stand by me forever...'
And somehow, every I hear this song, that feeling gets me good.
That loyalty. That decisiveness to stay with her no matter what.
But also, a hint of sadness (okay, there are 5% of sadness)
That nostalgic, 'we did it', but also that we might not always have this forever. ....
One day, she'd stop singing. One day, we'd be too old to be dancing around our room or fridge to her song. Nothing lasts forever.
Ah, the art of living in the moment without worrying about the future.
But, anyways, even though I sobbed like I was watching a K-Drama that I don't watch,
I am getting excited to see her perform next year.
I promise to cry in this song, do the point & double fist bump, and sing and dance for the other parts of the show.
Long Live.
-*^^*-
(ps: the crying could also be caused by jealousy of those who watched Coldplay playing in Jakarta last night. But that's a different story. Yes. I was heaps jelly. super jelly. super duper jelly. SO JELLY.)
